About what is going on with me-I've been doing better than I was last time I posted. More hopeful. I'm having some strange thoughts that I'm afraid will turn into delusions if I'm not careful (I'm a demon trapped in a human body-this is the root of my misery. Killing myself would free my spirit, but it would also sever it from humanity and allow my full, evil demonic nature to be unleashed. I must keep my body alive if I want to be a force for good; only my human side can keep my demonic side in check).

I have enough insight to acknowledge that these thoughts are strange and likely not a reflection of reality. Just worried about them getting worse.

I decided last minute to apply to medical school this cycle, so today I submitted the AMCAS primary application. Also sent transcripts from every school I've attended to AMCAS. I don't know if I'm strong or stable enough for med school and life as a doctor, but I guess I'll find out. I'm going to take a lot of courses similar to what is taught at med school this year for my masters, so hopefully that will give me an idea before I actually commit to going to a med school.