It is a betrayal are desperately reaching out for help and the very people who should be helping you the most are not helping. I am familiar with this feeling because I went through suicidal depression, anxiety, panic and an episode of psychosis, and abuse as a teenager and my parents did not help me. I learned through therapy that while I was at the mercy of my parents as a child, as an adult I could make some decisions for myself and take action to get the help I needed. I say this hoping it empowers you to keep seeking the help you are looking for.