You are not a mentally ill loser and you do deserve your family. This is a really ****** difficult time right now. It sucks because things are so uncertain. You are really missing your little ones right now. I'm sorry your wife persuaded your 6 y.o. to miss the amusement park trip. How did she convince her not to go? I am asking because I am wondering if there is some emotional weirdness going on with your wife saying things to your daughter about you that she shouldn't be saying...