It's 3:40 am and I'm still awake...My depression has gotten worse these past couple days and I've been feeling really down. I can't seem to take control of my life and it has been driving downhill quickly...The fall semester at my university starts this month and I haven't even so much as logged into my student account to see what my enrollment status is since I dropped out last semester. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't even be able to attend if I was able to because I'm pretty sure I won't receive financial aid to pay for my tuition since I dropped out last semester from my classes. Each time I think of logging into my student account, it just scares me and I end up putting it off...now it's to the point where classes for the university already start this month. My family thinks I will be attending this semester but I haven't told them yet...thinking about any of this just scares me and drives me into depression...I feel like I'm reaching the breaking point. I just want to give up and disappear...