i am so sorry.

i'm in my 30s and my parents just couldn't wrap their heads around my depression at all. they still can't.

as hard as this maybe, try to manage the best you can until you can go to a pdoc and a therapist yourself. your school counselor is a good starting place.

i didn't have these places when i was a teen (internet was so new) and so i internalized my parents non-response and i masked my emotions and i went for a very long time without getting help once i was old enough. it took a breakdown and hospitalization for me to recognize that i wasn't alone and that there were options (i also had an older friend who has some maternal meaning for me tell me that she too dealt with what i did and she would help me get help).

you're not alone. there is help. you may just have to wait a few years to get it if your mom can't grasp depression. advocating for yourself is difficult and it has taken me a lot to get to a place where i can, but the one place i still can't is with my own mother. she just doesn't get it