Thanks so much for these supportive and kind words. I am trying to stick it out until I start into a routine with my therapist which is once a week individual and once a week group (which starts next week).

I am incredibly sensitive to rejection which seems to be this never-ending cycle of forcing myself to open-up and reach out to people, only to be rejected, then retreat inwards, then isolate myself, followed by extreme loneliness.

You're right, exercise really helps. I was going to the gym 3-4 times a week while I was out on leave and I am hoping, with my new job which starts next week, I can pick that right back up.

I hate feeling this type of pain and I wish I knew more people who understood what it's like to feel what I feel.