Hi, I'm new to the site so I'm introducing myself on the forums that deal with my issues. I have struggled with depression my whole life, diagnosed three years ago, undergone most treatment for it. I've been relatively good, afloat, for a while now, but recently have been feeling overwhelmed and am scared that I'm gonna get swallowed up by depression again. Everything feels too stressful, I feel like I can't handle holding a job, I feel like I can't do it (life, responsibilities, independence) on my own. I'm a musician, and recently moved to a new city and have been hit by some pretty hard negativity and it's all making me feel like I should give up because I can't do any of it... tackle the music industry, not feel overwhelmed by a full-time job, live alone... I hate feeling powerless, like I can't do any of these things, especially music which is all I've ever been passionate about. And then I feel shame that I can't do what seems so easy for most other people, like going to work every day, or somehow getting paid music gigs frequently. I feel really down on myself right now. Please help.