Sky,i have been ignoring this for many years.Next year i will be fifteen and as a man i want to finally face it.I was telling this to myself this since i was ten.Now we are friends with these persons that bullied me,but sometimes i have <<illusions>>,that send me back at that age and with the same feelings that i felt back then.That goes for the bullying.I know it has passed and isn't coming back but is causing me terrible anxiety,depression and fear for what happened back then,at my ten to twelve.I know it's all inside my head,but they can't go away,my memories are chasing me merciless.But i keep giving myself time.And i know that i will get through this,because a glimpse of hope awakened inside me.Yesterday,i snapped out of my fears for a day and managed to have a nice day with my friends and schoolmates,because we went to a school trip.I felt very happy that i managed to find myself and settle things up.I'm very happy that i'm beating this alone and i'm going to close an appointment next week,i will,and i will let you know how i will have done.And right now i'm listening to a new music cd and i'm very calm,lost inside the music.I'm feeling great...