The title says it all...this illness is terrible. If someone were to look at my life from the outside, they'd probably say that it's just fine...I have a beautiful wife, a healthy, handsome intelligent son, a successful business...but I'm lost. This depression sucks the life out of me. I'm tired even though I sleep; I'm hungry, but I don't eat. I used to drink to self-medicate, but I don't anymore (probably the only positive that I have going for me)...only a year ago I enjoyed every waking minute. But when I quit my full-time job to return to a family business, it all started to fall apart...I hate this disease...I hate what it has done to me...I hate what it has done to my family...I hate what it has done with my relationships...I am bogged down with this, and it is beginning to feel, as someone said recently about this, that it will never end...Thanks for taking the time, and thanks for your support. I really need it today more than ever...