apology accepted.....but to answer questions from your first letter....yes, my child is recieving help...this child has been recieving psychological help since she was 6 and psychiatric help since she was 10...she has been in legal trouble since she was 11....this child has always been loved and has never been abused...but she has always been attracted to what she sees as "tough" and criminal...she says so herself and thinks it is "cool"...she is the only one of my children who is like this....her father and i have done everything the drs. and therapists have told us to do over the years, plus anything we could find thru our own searches of parents with children like mine as well as anything we could think of on our own to do to help this child....becuz i do not want to live in constant chaos or in fear for my life or the lives of other family members i do not want her home...and the guilt for feeling this way makes me feel like an absolute failure as a mother, a wife and a human being....after all, what kind of horrible person does not want to be around her own child? this child has almost strained my marriage to the breaking point...her older siblings left home to get away from her. although they are slowly mending relationships since they no longer live around her....i am sorry my post triggered your issues