Hi LoveHopeStrength14, I had gone through something similar and I know it can be very hard. All I know is that I think Thunder Bow is right. I think you'll be much happier to have helped him and have given him some comfort. I think you are a caring person who doesn't like to see someone else suffer, no matter who they are. I wish you the best and hope you can hold on during this difficult time. I know that those who care for sick family members are often not given the care or support they themselves need, so please remember to take care of yourself often. It will be the best for both you and your father.