(((hugs))) i'm not sure what to tell you... but i figured i would at least show my support. I know how you feel... sometimes i get triggers like that, that feel just totally absurd... but they are not absurd to us, and those like us... sometimes i have a hard time feeling justified for my feelings, but it is totally understandable why that triggered you like that. I wish i had some better words of advice than just "i understand..." because i feel some other things about it, but i just can't put it into words... but i know you are strong enough to keep yourself from cutting, and just know that i'm here for ya.
~Julie

"Sometimes it takes us to the bottom of our misery to understand the truth..."
~Gustav Havel - existentialist