Thank you Perna. Your sentiments speak to me. I do think it is a process and I hope I will be able to peacefully release when the time is time. My fear....that I ask for help with....is that the rug not be pulled out from underneath me.

I think that a year and a half is reasonable really tying up loose ends and releasing and moving on.

But was that your decision, your T's decision or both of your decision....and how (do you mind my asking) did that play out.

Sometimes when this incredible need develops (and it is seldom there) to connect like this...I forget the progress and feel that I will never get better..... Alas... the logical self hopes that is not true...the hopeful self.

Do you honestly feel free now.... ?