Like the title says, I am torn and overwhelmed by the choice facing me. I am an elementary teacher, so I have been off all summer trying to get myself straight but the deadline is fast approaching and I am not emotionally strong or steady. I finished the last day of the last school year by being hospitalized for MDD and suicidal ideation. I don't want to do less than the best for the kids and how can I meet 25+ students needs when I can barely meet my own needs? Fortunately since I have been consistently employed there I can have full pay and medical while out. I am leaning toward disability, but I hate to let down my coworkers who depend on me as a leader. I have to make a decision by Aug 20. Any thoughts?