allow me to interrupt. for me i don't mind with that. actually we are human if we think positively . it is human nature. sometime we active some time we don't. sometime we happy and some time we sad too. it is a 'rollercoster' a long our journey as a human. but always put our self in rational condition even so (as much as we can). if we fail. we admit it. its beyond our hand. couse we are human. so don't blame ourself to much. it is a bad action.. i think.
about your matter brakenbeard. you should be a live.. don't death before the time. learn to communicate. communicate with people you suite with.. stay alive.. even life have a negative line. live also have positive event too.. find what make you happy. you will happy. live positif. see world in diffriend view. enjoys youself. god will you will be happy. give your self chance.. cheer up. ok?

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