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Originally Posted by Love&Toil
I lost my temper and smashed my children's lamp in their room while they cowered in their beds. This is not usual for me. It's extreme. But my kids know how to push my buttons like no one else. How I handle my temper is my own responsibility. I regret acting out enormously. I've been here before, a long time ago, and meds have quieted things down but I've not had enough sleep and that makes me more edgy. They're still awake at 10:30 at night and don't listen when we speak calmly. I should call a counselor tomorrow to discuss this and get parenting advise. I should probably call my pdoc too. It's been a veeery long time since I've seen her. I'm ashamed.
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I'm sorry to hear of your lost temper and its consequences. I can relate. There have been quite a few times I've destroyed things out of anger too. Once was this bowl my grandmother had given me (nice Japanese china), and afterwards, I realized that the other matching one had already broken, so I had destroyed the only one left, plus I had thrown it *at* my husband, luckily he wasn't hurt. I've cut myself badly smashing down a ceramic oil incense burner onto a desk. Then having to deal with all the guilt and shame feelings afterwards... it's no picnic. I definitely agree that talking with someone about it would be helpful for you, especially if it's out of the ordinary for you. As far as I've experienced, talking about it always helps, and is better than pretending it didn't happen or just trying to forget. Best of luck and hope you're feeling better!
