The Monster Within.... That's pretty accurate.
Because sometimes there's a voice within, a voice different than the one you're use to.
Different than the voice you use to read silently in your mind. This other voice is cruel, hateful and sucks the life right out of you. That "monster" voice tells you how to act, how to view the world. Tells you that you are unlovable, and you can not love. That voice is scary beyond words, terrifying and benevolent.
That voice rules your world... it is darkness.

That is half of me, the other half is the opposite.... You know both.

I know that monster intimately .. unfortunately.

I just want to wake up and feel something.... I just want to be me for once, not a shell of what I use to be.
I want to feel passion for life, for love.

Is that to much to ask?