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Originally Posted by Double Edge
For those of you who have had success with your medication therapies, what does "normal" or homeostasis feel like to you? Do you still feel like you're "you," or do you feel you've had to trade off parts of yourself in order to maintain balance? Do you notice a marked difference in the processing of your emotions with and without medication?
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I resisted medication for years because I thought it would take away parts of myself or change my personality. It turns out that the parts it takes away, like the severe depression and paranoia, are mostly parts I really didn't want in the first place.
I suppose I'm slowed down a bit from hypomania, but those states were rare for me anyway, and my thoughts are still quick and racy a lot of the time. I certainly still feel like myself. I do wonder if I'm actually under-medicated because I still have some breakthrough symptoms.
"Normal" days do feel more peaceful than they did unmedicated, but it's not really a huge change. I certainly still feel things and my cognitive functioning is as good as ever.