Unbelievably so. I was so upset when they told me how long I would have to wait.
Especially when, for the first time ever I started having these horrible images pop into my head of me ending my life.
Here lately when I'm driving I have these urges to just floor it and whip the wheel hard to the right. Just to see what happens. And that, is simply scary.
I know I'm depressed but I've never had anything like that happen before.
It's like there is another person in my head telling me to do things that I would NEVER normally do.
And another example.... I was watching T.V. and out of nowhere I had a image of me holding a gun under my chin and pulling the trigger. I instantly started to cry. It was terrifying.

I don't understand why that would just pop into my head??
It felt like a stranger invaded my brain and was telling me to do this...

I do love my life, even though I deal with all this everyday. So I would never do anything like that. I have 3 kids so having those things just pop into my head made me mad. As if I would ever do something like that?!!! Never!