Hi TJ, it's OK to feel a bit scared about going home
Afterall it's going to be a completely different environment with different (more?) stressors and triggers. And you may feel a bit "out of your depth" and alone with all that, hey? But you're not going to be completely on your own.
You're going to be getting the hang/into the swing of talking to your wife.....friend......parents........whoever when things are hard, or picking up that phone for some support from your CPN, psychiatrist or crisis team.....aren't you??!!! Please say "yes" to that TJ!!
And naturally you've got us too!!!
And like you've already seen/experienced being home can be really helpful to you in some ways e.g. lowering your anxiety, so some things should improve in helping you get through, right?
And when you're home, anyone who matters should be taking things at your pace/should be understanding because obviously it's going to take some time and support to adapt. And if they're unsure, then maybe you could do a little explaining about what you need from them. Afterall it's going to be a day-by-day/week-by-week process isn't it??

Alison