Your situation sounds like a relationship I had to divorce entirely.That even meant even that a friendship with him had to be ended.I believe in intuition and I think you are right on the mark. Please consider your own self-preservation on the decisions you make from here on.Google emotional abuse and arm yourself with knowledge.Emotional abuse has a way of diminishing you over time not matter how strong willed you are..If you choose to have sexual relations with him then please use a condom. The key thing here in your life is to protect yourself.I know of playing the faking part and sexual relations had to be ended for my own emotional good.Life is too short to allow someone to diminish your core being.I stayed 17 months to long before I left and I had to pick myself off the floor from groveling too long for something I would never receive from that relationship.As far as God being his councilor , That is not the God I know, my God is a God of compassion and gentleness not a bull in a china shop. My thought is don't drag God in this and disgrace His name.It is mans doing that pushes on the shame and blame on the innocent. Re leave yourself of the false guilt and remember to ask yourself when you are being accused. " Have I been provoke to react in this fashion.There is a powerful book called The Compassionate Side of Divorce. by: C.S. Lovett. Maybe you can find some of your answers from there.I believe it will help you to make the best choices for yourself.It isn't always one questioned answered but many questions answered to make us confident in our decision of choice.Whether you stay or leave love yourself and confidently do what is best for you." I feel your pain."HUGS TO YOU"
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