I always new something was off with me. I dealt with things just fine for so many years or at least I thought I did. A couple of years ago I was called a narcissist and I studied the definition closely which brought me to NPD. I based on the DSM4 and had basically all the symptoms of the checklist. This brought me to a dark place for sometime. To be a perfectionist in so many ways and then to see that by having this disorder how can I be so perfect or better than all. I also tried to get reactions out of my mother because of all the things she did or should I say did NOT do for me growing up. This only furthered my travels deeper on this road to darkness. At this time I can still feel great and powerful, or nothing, normal or even broken. Finding ourselves is the key to recovery!!! (Still looking)

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