I hope you feel better now that you have ranted. I am a fat girl too. have been all my life. my mom always told me that no guy would ever want me because I was fat. I was actually in a couple relationships but only when I had gotten down to a size 12 or 14. but I still couldn't believe guys wanted me then. I still believe guys would never want me so I think that I why I have been alone for so long. self fulfilling prophecy. I see lots of huge women with nice looking men come into where I work and wonder how that happened, so I know it is possible and wonder why not me. so I know it has got to be the way I think. change the way I think and I might get a man. take care.