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Old Aug 14, 2014, 04:52 PM
Blues47 Blues47 is offline
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Originally Posted by regretful View Post
Today my friend asked me if this affected me in any way.
Interesting...my dad is the only person I'm remotely close to that was with me in the aftermath of a suicide attempt 25 years ago. I'd often wondered what he thought or remembered about that incident...I don't talk about my feelings to anyone but not a day goes by that isn't some sort of struggle or reminder that another go is drawing nearer. The night after Williams's death I spoke to him on the phone and he didn't mention it. He even talked about Lauren Bacall's death. I finally asked him what if anything he remembered about my attempt and surprisingly he didn't really remember it at all as a single event. He recalled things around it...other episodes and crises I had been through...but not the night that I stumbled down to the kitchen at 4am while he was making coffee and told him I'd swallowed [a VERY large number of] sleeping pills and had unexpectedly woke up bloated and hallucinating and he took me to the hospital. I wish I hadn't mentioned it...he got defensive as if my question was an attack on him as a caring father. But I guess all I really hoped is that under the circumstances, he might have asked me - as your friend did - if this affected me in some way. Not because I think he owes me the consideration, but because he was really the only person in the world that could've known it did.
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Msboot, regretful
Thanks for this!
regretful