I have had my disasters in my manic stages. I don;t care if I feel flat, it beats losing everything I love because of poor behavior. I take my meds and get along with them.
I feel in recovery now and feel pretty "normal". I am not overambitious, but am filling up my life with worthwhile things since my two year depression. It's a gradual process, but I do NOT want to go the hypo. I'm just too old.