I think it is a good idea to go back to the counselor and mention everything you talk about here. does it bother you that you are this way? there must be something about it that bothers you that you would post about it. I do not think that the counselor would think you are a freak so do not worry about that. you come across as very sincere and concerned for yourself and that would come across to the counselor who would be very empathetic toward you. take care.