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Aug 14, 2014, 07:24 PM
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Grand Poohbah
Community Liaison
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Member Since: Jan 2011
Location: Surrey, SE London, UK
Posts: 1,628
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Hello and good evening. My gosh hunny, my whole heart goes out to you because I completely UNDERSTAND everything you've said. The real telling things is the way your eating habits evolved. Eating equalled being ''loved'' or bought good attention from adults every time you ate. They congratulated you every time you ate!!   I'm NOT blaming anybody, but it would appear this is the basis of your worries concerning your disordered eating. Maybe a better way to say it is your unhealthy attitude to food. That's sounds harsh but it's NOT meant to be, you can't help the way you are and you sound desperately unhappy. I understand that too, for my history is your history, except I'm much older. I'm no expert but I've had serious ED's for the last 33 years and I still have them now. This why I strongly urge anyone who's anxious about food, no matter what their weight, should seek help. Because of all the starving and severe restriction, and bulima, and obesity over the years, I hardly eat anything, like 3 ounces of cheese and 4 coffee's in any 24 hour period. My metabolisim is completely gone, I have no metabolisim anymore. This is why I can't eat anything without gaining weight. I've just spent over a year getting shot of only 1 stone, in the old days I could shift that in ONE WEEK!!!!  I have been hospitalised a number of times due to ED's and things resulting from ED's. I don't advise it as a good pathway. If you want to talk, I'll be here somewhere hunny. Take care.
HUGS. XXXXXXXXXXXXX
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