Hi everyone! Wow, I'm crying now. I love you all and really feel I have some people that care about me. I do need to tell you all what I did and what happened. Bear with me:

I got into a free email account and made up some stupid name and I emailed his ex-secretary. All it said was it was a terrible thing emailing pictures like that to a married man. Today, my husband called me more than normal. I got into his email account and ALL emails to and from her were entirely erased. I know for a fact he won't share any of this with me...like two people just having a conversation. He's been real nice on the phone, asking me to dress all sexy and stuff. I am sick to my stomach. I know I shouldn't have contacted her....but I did...I'm sorry! Look what it did. One of you was right, though, if not her, then someone else...there is still the "mystery" woman on his work voice mail who he completely denies called...her messages play over and over in my mind.

I keep the finances, don't have any money for lawyer. Yes, we have kids...I have two from previous, we have one together. He has a handicapped daughter that I take full care of...

I have contacted 7 couselors/therapists, but nothing is completely set yet. They are soooooo expensive and I don't have a lot of money. I will probably charge my sessions.

Please keep your comments coming and go ahead and tell me I was wrong for doing the email....and your response to how they responded to it....

Thanks!!! I have such a headache!