I went to my first session today...not sure if you would call it a session, more like an assessment so the psychologist could see what I needed. Even thought it was an assessment, I still found it very hard...I was finding it really emotional and hard to answer his questions and providing him explanations of what's going on. I felt unsure when the psychologist said that my case was "special." Why does my case have to be special? That certainly did not make me feel special or any better about myself. Anyways, he said he will be referring me to the case manager and putting me down to start receiving therapy sessions since I am doing all this through the university's counseling services. He also mentioned that the case manager might be able to help me look for financial assistance in trying to seek medical assistance from Stanford. I'm not even sure if this will be the same person I will be seeing throughout my sessions or just for my assessment. God I hate the term "assessment"...

I'm also seeing the educational counselor on Monday to see what my options are for my studies...wonder how that's going to turn out. I'm kind of hesitant in all of this because I have to see all these different people. I hope this is a step in the right direction.