Thanks, ToeJam...I'm honestly not really used to questioning my T. I get into the same pattern where she suggests something, and I gauge whether she thinks I should agree or nod or ponder, and then I do what I think she's looking for. I hadn't really thought about that until right now. If I did question her a little bit, maybe it would be clearer to me and I could start working on it.

Today seems a bit better than yesterday - but I spent a lot of the day unconsciously doing what was expected. As long as I don't really think about it, it's so much easier...but then I end up missing out on lots of 'reality,' I think. I wonder if this is part of the reason I don't have a lot of memories - maybe I wasn't really present for a lot, if you know what I mean. *shrugs*