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Originally Posted by Nightside of Eden
I resisted medication for years because I thought it would take away parts of myself or change my personality. It turns out that the parts it takes away, like the severe depression and paranoia, are mostly parts I really didn't want in the first place.
I suppose I'm slowed down a bit from hypomania, but those states were rare for me anyway, and my thoughts are still quick and racy a lot of the time. I certainly still feel like myself. I do wonder if I'm actually under-medicated because I still have some breakthrough symptoms.
"Normal" days do feel more peaceful than they did unmedicated, but it's not really a huge change. I certainly still feel things and my cognitive functioning is as good as ever.
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Thank you for your feedback. You make a good point, about the medication taking away things you didn't want in the first place. Just thinking back on the past seventeen years (based on first known manic episode), I've definitely been depressed a lot more than anything else, so if I can get rid of that, I think that would be beneficial. It's good to hear you feel your cognitive functioning is unchanged, I always worry about that with new medications. It's nice to know you still feel like you have your feelings too. Thanks a lot for sharing!
