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Originally Posted by lilypup
I have had my disasters in my manic stages. I don;t care if I feel flat, it beats losing everything I love because of poor behavior. I take my meds and get along with them.
I feel in recovery now and feel pretty "normal". I am not overambitious, but am filling up my life with worthwhile things since my two year depression. It's a gradual process, but I do NOT want to go the hypo. I'm just too old.
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I'm sorry to hear about your unfortunate manic episodes, but glad to hear you feel that you're in recovery. You make a good point... it's a trade off between what you know to be destructive or not feeling emotion as intensely. In that perspective, it might be worth it.
It's been four years since my last manic episode, at least I THINK... ever since PTSD in 2010 my memory has been spotty across that time period, and it's very likely some of the crazy spousal arguments I've had since were in the throes of a manic episode, where I became out of control and even violent. I just don't remember those times very well. So I really don't know.
It's hard coming out of depression, but it's good you're finding worthwhile things to do. I've learned to try to force myself to keep up my hobbies when I'm depressed, in spite of myself. Nice to hear it sounds like things are working well for you though. Thank you for sharing!
