She doesn't even know about the cheating. It was not about that. The whole point of me cheating, was that our marriage was in tatters!
The cheating just finally made me see how bad things had become between us, and our conflict just got to the point where we were threatening to separate, and she finally just left.
It wasn't a surprise, it was just very abrupt!
As I said before, I wouldn't normally be so upset, but the fact that our kids are involved and that we have known eachother for 15 years, made or very disturbing.
I realize the grass isn't greener on the other side of the fence. Or to be more direct, the passion isn't always hotter with the other woman!
We both wanted to split! That's why I cheated, I was not feeling loved and appreciated.
However, my wife and have realized that we love eachother very deeply, and it is time to decide to end this marriage forever, or to reignite the fire.
We will see.
I don't regret anything I did during my hypomanic episode. I made tons of money, had to a of fun and did some risky things including seeing another woman. Such is life.
Our split is not about my hypomania at all, it is about years of disrespect and lack of appreciation between spouses.
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Bipolar 1 ~ 300mg Lamictal, 4mg Ativan