Oh, that's a tough one and I know it's hard not to feel embarrassed about how you acted before. But, hopefully, your friends will be understanding of what you're going through and cut you some slack for your behavior. And maybe your husband is wise easing you back into things? Lastly, if you do really struggle with this, maybe it wouldn't hurt to talk with this friend about what you've been through and help her understand it a little. I'm not sure if this is a friendship that's really important to you or not, but if so, that might help things along. So, just some thoughts. Hope they help!