And I'm wondering if people would be able (and willing) to give me their opinion or advice.

Okay, so as people may know, therapy was terminated for me recently due to my T's graduating and becoming "the real deal". He was the first person I've ever spoken to about my past experience of abuse. He recommended I go see someone to work through the trauma and resolve my feelings.

I really wasn't keen on the idea, the place he was recommending scared the crap out of me as an idea. It takes a lot for me to trust someone with my secrets, and going to see a new person for a short period of time to deal with something so hurtful wouldn't exactly give time for me to even begin to trust them.

So I talked to my (now former T's) supervisor, and told him I wanted to talk to someone, but wasn't keen on my T's recommendation.

This supervisor (of my former T) recommended that I go see my FIRST T that I've ever had. Who is a wonderful woman, and I really miss her as a T, because she was fantastic. Therapy was terminated with her for the same reason as my now former male T - they both graduated from their program and went out into the "real world".

I got in contact with my first T - who gave me some details about the place she's currently working and the procedure about what would happen if I came to her organization for therapy.

I'm not exactly keen on $50/session, but I can live with it. Only problem is that it would be completely out of pocket because my "parents" cover me with their health plans and they can NOT find out about the therapy.

So my question is this - do you think I should go to my first T, pay the $50/session and get over my "issues" ... or should I look for someone cheaper ... or should I just suck it up, forget I have this problem to deal with and go it (resolve my "problem") alone?

What would YOU do if you were in my situation?

(And no, my now former T cannot see me. He's a very nice T, but he's gone now so that's no longer an option)