Thanks (((((((((((alexandra_k))))))))))))) for the quick response.

I can't "really" afford the $50, but I guess I can budget a bit. The pains of being a university student with no job - it sucks!

Am I being dependent though wanting to go back to her? I really like her and trust her and miss her as a T. What if it hurts me more to go back now and then have to leave again... I love the way she goes about asking me questions, and she has my respect and trust but at the same time I don't want to bother her with my problems when other people might need her more. What if she finds me to be too difficult? I've changed a lot over the past year. What if she can't help me?

What if, what if...

but at the same time, I can also list off all the stuff I really like - like the type of therapy she does, how she frames her questions to me, her warmth and caring towards everyone, and the fact that I trust and respect her a lot help as well.

Ack. This is why I can't make any decisions on my own... I think too much.