Hi TJ, well done on not letting the triggers beat you (yet again!! ) !!!!!
And the starting to spot and act on the early onsets is going to be making a massive difference in getting through/managing them and your feelings. I know it might not work all the time, but..........excellent!!!
And the rest/support set up sounds really positive too.........but perhaps see the help out there as there as a tool in staying on track as much as you can, in helping you to keep on developing those coping resources, as giving you that backup in keeping on top of your wellbeing, and in helping you in finding/experiencing really significant things in your life............all that kind of stuff ..............instead of as much there to prevent x or y from happening, because you're not well enough to go it alone, because you can't do x or y.
Let that help be there to empower you, to help you feel empowered..............instead of much more a reminder of..............because there is so much more to you TJ, so much you don't always give yourself credit for!!
And you know if times are hard.........which they may be at times........you're not going to be on your own, perhaps keep reminding yourself of that as often as you need to, hey??

And the writing down your feelings bit doesn't just have to be focused on home visits, do you reckon?? If you feel that you might be coming close to crisis at any time then do you think you could be writing as much as you can down for if you need to phone the crisis team. I know that might be really hard but it might help to be reading (on the phone) what's been going on for you, rather than having to try and explain when you're already feeling.............????

But really it feels like you're already reducing the risk of crisis in so many ways!!!
And as for hope...........you've been doing so well despite/regardless of some things going on for you.............I think you deserve a little hope, right??!!

Alison