hi. I felt the same when I first sought help. In the run up to my assessment my portions grew again. That night I really not to binge and I eventually gave in over the next week. In the run up to my first session with my therapist I had my worst few days binging in weeks! However, after that first session I so much better. I even relaxed around dinner that evening which was a huge deal. Talking about things can definitely bring issues to the surface, but that is also where the healing happens. Hopefully this is the next step for you