the issue is that I have brought this up in that kind of way to him nearly everyday and it seems to have no effect on things.....

which is why I end up being the one in the house that picks up things and does the house work...cause apparently I am the one that wants to do this and wants to get it done.

which is why my anger has been really high...I mean what else can I do other then telling him to please help me out with things.

and then he is confused when I am pissed at him.

and whenever he comes home from work he complains about how tired he is how he has had a hard day.

he was doing this on a weekend I had worked split shifts....and I was just really fuming mad....by this point cause he goes in for a few hours does his job...but then he *****es and moans about it.
and yet I put in probably more work then he does. Yesterday was my day off from work...and I went and did lawn care work for a friend of the both of ours cause I want to make and earn money I need to I have debts....I have bills.

and something else he does...he has a smoking problem....which would be fine if it was just his but I share in this cause if he has no money and he wants a cigarette he will try to get me to spend MY money on it.

and I am just getting feed up...I work hard for my money and just cause he lives with me, cause he is my boyfriend, and I love him does....not make it ok for him to ask me to spend my money on him I will feel used ...if he does that...and I tell him this in conversations all the time...but it seems like no matter how I phrase it he get mad or he takes it peronally.

I know I am mad about and I know I convey that when he talks to me but after this many times of dealing with this kind of thing from him..... its hard to deal with in a cool calm manor....and its effecting our relationship...I don't know what to do about it....I mean lol it scares me I am so mad at him all the time...I don't even want to necessarily be around him all that often when he is home...

lol and I feel odd and ****** for that cause I do love him but omg this just it needs to end I can't deal with it...hopefully this just stops.

or maybe I can have us both go in for couples therapy.

lol I am totally venting at this point...I am sorry....ugh yay for being bipolar and having all my issues and emtions splatter onto everyone....in lovely ness. lol as seen above.