thank you all.. yeah i can say sometimes it's really hard to shut up for me, i actually admire how my husband does it because i know im a handful but he just shuts up. it's gotta be hard coz i tried that, and i want to punch someone in the face instead..

thanks brokenentity, i will always try to keep in mind that some people are just what they are and give it a chance as well..

thanks frankbtl actually i thought about what you said about lacking anything in my life..i dont have close friends, all i have is my husband..that probably is one of the causes? no one else keeps me grounded i think. defensiveness, prolly because im arrogant? or i dunno..i dont wanna be seen as weak by people so i advance maybe?..

and hvert, exactly, even the littlest of things might set us off but yeah i'll also try to do what you and brokenentity shared. there may be hope for us yet