Yeh, I think alot of my sleeping is an escape thing, although I do sleep for 12 hours without really waking much sometimes so I am exhausted. The Zyprexa is probably not helping but it does help a lot with my thoughts so I need to take it. I am taking 10g a day at the moment. I have Fibromyalgia too and that can make you tired. The low mood and hopelessness is a giveaway for depression though.

Well last night I slept 'only' 10 hours and so far ave managed to keep myself out of bed. I am showered and dressed and about to turn on some music and dance to try and shake away the tiredness. My mood is a little better today but i am still pretty low. Despite that I am going to do all I can to have a great, productive day and try climb out of the depression without more meds. I only recently came out of a long depression with cycles of dysphoric mania mixed in and that was hell. In the end I needed ECT to pull me out and it worked instantly. I rapid cycle and have mixed states so pretty much anything can happen. Thankfully this is much milder than what I went through earlier this year, I am just wanting to avoid it happening again.

Thanks again for everyone's replies! It means a great deal