T encourages me to contact him but I'm too nervous to unless I have a solid reason, and the only solid reason I can think of is a scheduling issue. I would have absolutely no clue how to go about something like asking for reassurance or just sharing thoughts. The shame would destroy me. And even though he seems to encourage it, maybe I'm wrong, and only scheduling stuff is okay anyway... But I'd be afraid to ask, because it might be insulting...
Right so. As you can see, I'm kind of a mess