Yeah I guess we're very different in this so I don't know what I can say. I haven't had trauma, nor physical injuries and my upbringing was fairly mornal. Everything was going swimmingly until I was a teenager and I was suddenly deeply depressed. Things don't even seem to set my mood off generally. It often comes out of nowhere. I know that antidepressant induced mania doesn't count because it's actually somewhat common for people without bipolar disorder to get that. I Guess maybe try to focus on the symptoms for now if nobody can decide. My psychiatrist didn't tell me for five years since he wanted to be sure and didn't think I would gain anything from speculating. Taking medication doesn't bother me. I've been on meds for years so that didn't really bother me, it's just a part of life. What I wish is that they would guarantee work like they do for other conditions.