So... for the past two years I've been stuck with the diagnosis "psychosis NOS" as a result of "possible complex PTSD". I've disagreed since the very beginning and have always believed my hallucinations, paranoia, and fear to be the result of schizophrenia. It's TWO YEARS into this charade and my doctors still give me the "you're too high-functioning/well-organized to be schizophrenic" excuse. But I'm not traumatized either! The only things traumatizing me right now are the voices and the doctors. I try to tell them this and they say I'm in denial, need to talk more about the past. However I'm ready to move on and all I want is this annoyance (voices) to cease.

They've also tried to convince me the voices are MY OWN, and that they are MEMORIES. They've even gone as far as to suggest it's not psychosis at all. Yes, you heard it - when the coffee pot starts yelling at me about the CIA, it's a memory, not a hallucination! *insert biggest eyeroll the universe will allow* I've told these doctors what my voices say and why all this nonsense is not plausible. I've explained that while yes, I recognize these voices are a manifestation of my brain, they do appear to be coming from outside of me. I've got inanimate objects talking to me for heaven's sake! They simply do not care.

I don't know what else to do. They've had me on and off different meds that have done nothing for my condition, whatever it might be. I feel as though until I have a proper diagnosis, I'll never receive proper treatment. TWO YEARS and not a single solitary moment of silence.

Any advice on how to get a real diagnosis? I'm not doomed to be an -NOS enigma forever, am I?