Hi, I'm here because I would like to better understand what's wrong with me... I have been going to a therapist for like a month but then stopped.
This is my story: I'm 21 and for the past 10 years or so I have been feeling depressed for long periods of times alternating with some periods of "euphoria". Every time I keep feeling low I start thinking I might be depressed or have something that I can't understand but after a while depression disappears and I start feeling more energetic, funnier, more alive, the life of the party. I've been struggling with these alternating swings for a long time and lately these have become a problem because I'm in college and I haven't managed to finish regularly exams and tests: sometimes I feel so confident and ace it completely and some other times it's like I can't even open my books because I prefer to stay in bed watching tv all day. The thing is that the stuff I'm studying doesn't bore me at all, it fascinates me but at the same time I'm not able to pick the book up. Very lately I've been thinking that I might have bipolar disorder because the symptoms fit but I'm not sure because up to this point of my life I've tried to tag my behaviors with some particular illness but never been able to find something. I'm terribly worried to what might happen to me because I really need and want to continue college but I can't move on from this situation. Please help me...