Hello everybody my name is Mike and I have Bipolar I disorder on the moderate to severe side of the spectrum. I have comorbid severe OCD, which was my original diagnosis along with depression until I had a full blown manic episode about 10 yrs ago. I am 37 and have dealt with mental health issues for over half my life now. So long that when I started, SSRI's were considered risky.
I managed to graduate from college somehow and work from home which is a blessing that I am thankful for every day. I don't think I could handle a "regular job." I have been on every med out there. All the SSRI's, anti-pychotics, benzos, mood stabilizers etc. Plus I have been on most talking therapies, ERP, ACT, etc. I have also undergone ECT three times to combat depression. I am finally in a successful relationship with a wonderful woman who accepts me unconditionally and this disorder.

My cocktail at the moment is 900 mg gabapentin (best drug ever for anxiety), 150 mg of Trazadone with 3 mg of klonopin for sleep (bad insomnia), 150 mg lamictal, 150 mg of Luvox (only SSRI that reduces my OCD), and 2 mg of Prazocin for nightmares (it kills them and I no longer fear going to sleep at night).

I humbly hope to help and support people in this forum, and receive help and support.