well, ive been suggested to go inpatient...
the clinic i go to say they cant monitor me enough to accurately treat me
ive always been completely compliant and strong..
i've been self harming again, and my case manager seems to think im getting worse and need to have more supervision / monitoring to get an accurate dx and treatment plan

i am totally scared out of my pants
im agoraphobic and social phobic along with other stupid things... so it feels really hard to want to go, although i want to go to get proper treatment...
going to a strange place with strangers all around makes me super nervous and anxious, i dont know what to expect (here in virginia)

i dont have any clue what to take... i packed 7 pants, and 10 or 11 shirts, 1 jacket, 1 towel, shampoo and conditioner ( i read somewhere they wont let you have it if it has alcohol in it and what i have does)
i also read that you cant take electronics to most of the hospitals, i wanted to take atleast headphones mp3 and ipod (ipod has some games but no camera)
and some notebooks

im just so anxious i dont know what to do, can i lock myself in a room away from everyone there?

i haven't been doing well on any of the medications my pdoc has tried me on... symptoms are super hyper active, im at wits end and they are wanting me to go inpatient monday