Hey Pinksoil,

You have such an amazing therapist. That sounds like a fantastic session. I'm sorry it's so painful when it ends. I'm hurting right now because I won't see my own therapist next week, but I do keep trying to remember the last session and the things we said. It was a good session too.

Cool that you can talk so much about the process! I don't have any background in psychology so don't get to have those kinds of discussions. Although I do end up reading a lot about psychology. It's really fascinating stuff.

I think I won't have kids either. Somewhere in me I know I don't have the ability to bond with a child. I've mentioned that once or twice in therapy even. I guess it's a moot point since I'm not even dating anyone (let alone getting ready to procreate!). But sometimes it seems sad to me that the parts of life that seem so normal to other people feel like such alien ideas to me. Maybe I grieve for things I don't have also.

I think it's great that you were able to talk about the disconnect you feel after therapy. And he seems so wonderfully supportive telling you to call and all that. I hope you'll do it when you need to. I never seem to have the nerve to call my therapist though sometimes I come in and tell him that I wanted to during the week. And we talk about why I don't. I guess I have a strong need to look like I'm not needy. When really I'm hopelessly dependent....

I always love reading your posts Pinksoil. I feel like I can relate to a lot of the things you say. I'm really sorry that you're in pain right now. I hope you will find ways to remember the connection outside the therapy hour.

Take care,
Sidony