im usually easy to talk to and have alot of things to talk about ... i mean it seems everyone that meets gets along with but i mould a type of personality thats more out going and gullible, i guess thats why ive been isolating because im never able to be myself ... i know my anxieties are just high and that my mind is just exaggerating the fear, im trying to just relax and go with the flow on this one...
i haven't slept away from the house and family in for ever (only way i could do it before was with massive amounts of alcohol and drugs )

i just keep telling myself its going to be fine, just take 1 step at a time... i hope they dont write me down as a harm to myself though... will old cuts cause them to do this? ( multiple week or so old?)