I feel like I might hurt myself. I keep hearing voices. My meds are supposed to keep the voices away. If I just let myself die then they would go away. I don't want to do that though. But I want to. Each second feels like years. I feel like I can't remember anything.... Did I eat lunch, did I feed my son lunch? I keep thinking its so late at night and its only 3 in the evening. I don't knw what to do my husband is out of town my mom is getting ready to leave town and I don't have gas in the car to go anywhere, my husband has the money, if he has any. we don't get paid until monday. I think. I keep forgeting what day is today. Today is saturday but I have to keep checking.